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January 13, 2005

D - Austin, Texas, USA * Try to Make the Best of Life

Hello Sunny
I live in Austin, Texas
and have off and on since 1947.
I graduated from school here in Austin.
I married a service man
( US Air Force) in 1953
and moved from Austin to several different
cities and countries.

I had 2 children. A son and a daughter.
I divorced this man in 1968
and remarried my soul mate in 1968.
He too was in the Air Force
and we were married for 36 years
after traveling to many different countries
and cities here in the US.

We moved back to Austin
when he retired in 1973.
My children graduated from school
here in Austin.
I have 2 granddaughters -
one out of school the other is a sophomore.

My husband passed away
on February 18, 2004.
I have not gotten over this yet.
Plus the last of June 2004
both of my children came over
and really slapped me in the face
about things I have done or do
that they don't like about me.

They loved their stepdad
and I thought they loved me as well
but it turns out that they think
I am not a good person.

I don't understand why
as I have always done all I knew
to do for them.
This has hurt me so bad
and even though I am seeing a counselor
I have not gotten over this.
It has made me feel
very unworthy of even living.

As far as what I am up to in my life
- I am trying to go on without
my husband and children
and not spend the day in tears.
This is pretty hard to do.

My interests - Hoping to get my kids
straightened out and fix any problems
that I can that make them feel
the way they do about me.

Other than this I have to little dogs
that I love to play with and spend time with.

Work - I have not worked since
my last marriage -
I had gone through nurses training
just before I married
but so many of the countries
we were in only hired locals
and after awhile I felt that so much
had changed and so many new med's
that I would have to go back to school
before I could get another job in nursing.
So I have been a homemaker for 36 years.

I like being at home.
It gave me more time with my husband
and kids when they were still in school.
Now I am lonely and try to make the best
of life in making new friends
at a swimming exercise class
I have joined and the dogs here at home.

I hope to achieve the ability
of being by myself and not being depressed.
I hope to achieve the ability
of getting my children back in my life again.

I might say that one of the reasons
that my son was so hard on me was
the fact he lost his 43 year old wife
about a month before my husband died.

She had a fast moving cancer
and was only sick for about 10 days.
He thought at my age of 68
at the time I should have been
the one to die instead of her.
Now I kinda agree with him.

I hope to achieve to keep my chin up
and be a sweet ole grey headed
lady and mother.

I have enjoyed the few affirmations
you have sent. Thank you for your help so far.
D - Austin, Texas, USA

Aloha! Sunny :)
Sunny Hills, CPCC, Maui, Hawai'i
Certified Professional Co-Active Coach
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The Meaning of ALOHA:
A = Ahonui = Patience
L = Lokahi = Unity
O = 'Olu'olu = Agreeableness
H = Ha'aha'a = Humility
A = Akahai = Kindness
~Paul Pearsall, Phd., The Pleasure Prescription

Posted by Sunny at January 13, 2005 03:50 PM

Aloha! Sunny :)
Sunny Hills, CPCC, Maui, Hawai'i
Certified Professional Co-Active Coach
The Affirmations Coach (TM)

Please Tell Your Friends About Sunny Thoughts
Sign Up Here For FREE Positive Affirmations and Positive Thinking

The Meaning of ALOHA:
A = Ahonui = Patience
L = Lokahi = Unity
O = 'Olu'olu = Agreeableness
H = Ha'aha'a = Humility
A = Akahai = Kindness
~Paul Pearsall, Phd., The Pleasure Prescription

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